my brain hasn’t been working to the best of it’s ability lately. overwhelmed and flustered. stressed and shaken. but hey, isn’t that just life?
looking back on it, it is disappointing to realize how sad I have always been. can someone please help me? just something, anything, please one thing that will make me smile. even if it’s just a little bit. a teeny weeny bit? please, anyone. hello? oh fuck it you’re crazy you’re just talking to yourself anyway.
(please understand that these really are journal entries. these are things I write to myself personally. they usually shouldn’t be shared but I like when people understand people. it helps us understand ourselves. sharing our personal thoughts are one way of doing that. understanding.)
I’m on the hunt for the one person I know I am always going to want.
it pulls down on me like a heavy burden. the weight of being, me. I am anti-gravity.
it is not the appropriate time of year for this poem, but I just had the idea for it and needed to get it down.
(you can also read it backwards.)
summer is over
the snow is coming.
I want to live in a place that is night time all the time. my functionality is increased as an individual after the sun is down.
of a single
to scribble down
translation from pen
a lost language
it’s 5.50 am
and my head
my heart is full of gears
it cranks and turns and steers
I am a smoker addicted to writing.
there are 2 types of people, “perfect” people and “broken” people. I know I know I know! no one is perfect but hear me out. the debate here is which one is better… I say the broken people and here is why. the “perfect” person is the person that has lived there life to this point without taking any big risks without experiencing any real tragedy. I am not talking about break ups or broken heartedness I am talking about real tragedy. the “broken” people are the people that have truly experienced the evil in the world, the tragedy and the comedy in all of it. those people have dragged themselves up from the rubble, the absolute zero, the very bottom of everything, and in turn it has taught them to become more open minded, stronger, patient, empathetic, and wise beings.